"Im not beautiful."
"You're really not that pretty."
"Am I worthy of anything?"
Sometimes this is what I tell myself. Why? Because sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror I feel ashamed, embarrassed, repulsed, and ugly. So, I guess you can say I'm insecure, but isn't everyone? It doesn't seem that way all the time. At times it feels as if I'm the only one who feels ashamed.
So, I wear make-up hoping that it will help me see myself as pretty, gorgeous, and beautiful. It doesn't always work.
Now, it's not just my face that makes me feel insecure. It's my body too. I think that's my main reason for feeling insecure. That's the reason I'm repulsed at times.
I'm not stick skinny by any means, but I'm not overweight either. I guess that means I'm . . . average? I look at myself in the mirror and say, "Yeah, it would be good for me to lose a couple extra pounds. Then I'll be perfect."
Ah. There's that word: Perfect. Well, I don't use that word anymore because now I know, NOTHING and NO ONE is perfect. No matter what you think. Sure, things can be perfectly imperfect, but not perfect.
I have met some amazing people in the past year. Yes, year. They have helped me boost my confidence level up a tiny bit. They have made me learn what true beauty is. Do you know what true beauty is?
It's where you're comfortable with who you are and don't let what others say change your view of yourself. It's when you know nothing is perfect, that you just need to be enough for yourself and know that no matter what, you are beautiful. All your imperfections are what make you perfectly
imperfect.
The media makes you think that being skinny, tan, flawless, and tall is what makes you beautiful and that it is the ONLY beautiful.
It's not.
I am slowly, but surely becoming happy with myself. I am noticing that I am beautiful, that I do have a beautiful shape and face. I'm beautiful all over.
And so are you. YOU have beauty like no one else does. YOU have a smile that no one else can smile. YOU have a voice that no one else can speak. And YOU have a life that no one else can live except yourself.
So, next time you look in the mirror tell yourself, "I am beautiful and that is not a lie."
What I'm trying to say is, insecurity doesn't last. It's not permanent. Sure every now and again you will feel insecure, but that's human. Just don't feel that way all the time. You will
miss out on so much in life if you let insecurity get to you.
Next time you go to the beach, don't look at your body in the mirror and point out things on your body that are 'ugly'. Just slap on that bathing suit and go.
Embrace your beauty and know there is one thing in the world that everyone is born with: Beauty.
Don't you know your beautiful?
