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Everyone is faced with different hardships. Some people have trouble staying positive in negative situations. Others are trialed by depression, and lack of motivation. There are also those who have bad tempers. They have difficulties controlling the anger they feel inside. Sometimes they thrash out on people they care about and end up feeling awful about it. Bad tempers can ruin relationships, create distances with people you care about, and even frighten some people. Trust me, I know.
I am unfortunately very guilty of having a bad temper. When people like me get upset, we first become angry, and then feel sad later. When we are really angry, we might yell at those we care about when they upset us. That's what happened today. My mom and I got in a disagreement about something that I was doing at school and I blew up. As I am writing this I feel simply awful for what I said. I didn't throw out any insults, but the way I fought verbally with her replays in my mind. I want to run up to my mother and tell her how sorry I am now, but she's busy at work while I'm left in enormous guilt.
The part that saddens me the most is I know I have a horrible temper but still get so angry. I'm trying to control it, but I often fail. I know that it has ruined some friendships I've had in the past, and I'm always afraid it will happen again. I've talked to people about the anger, and I'm not diagnosed with having "anger issues." I have the strength to control it; I just need to be better at doing so.
I'm naturally a debater, but many times I wish I wasn't. Whenever I'm around something I strongly disagree with I have the urge to speak my mind about the situation. For example in seventh grade I had this language arts teacher who is amazing, but also in the nicest of words, was a "know it all." He was talking about my religion one day in class discussion time which was fine with me - until he started saying some things I knew weren't true. This upset me, and I politely raised my hand and told him that I belonged to the faith he was talking about, and that some of the things he said were not correct. He was a tad bit shocked I was speaking up about this but thanked me for enlightening him further on my faith.
In the situation I shared above, my natural debater inside was polite and positively spoke my mind. Some situations however don't turn out so well. When I share my opinion I can be a bit lenient to my side of the story, and it does show. I am still learning how to be a better debater and how to respect other while gaining it back in return.
Having a bad temper can not only affect the relationships you have with other, but your happiness as well. When you dwell on something you are angry about, it doesn't feel good. When I'm upset I don't like thinking of what caused it, but I still do. I'm working on how to control it better and how to be a more rational person. We all have our hardships, and we all struggle in different ways. What we all should keep in mind though is how to accept whatever problem we may have, and to try your best to fix it.
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