I snap at people. I get annoyed over little things. I say things I don't mean. I become angry at myself, the world, everyone. That's what happens when I'm upset. I'm not the type of person you'd spot crying. I don't cry that much. And when I do, it generally lasts a minute or two and then it's gone. Except for hormone-induced crying, but that doesn't count. I'm talking about when I have something to legitimately be upset about.
The only time I'm actually crying is when it's from laughing. I don't know what it is, but I just don't feel the need to cry. So instead I become an even more quiet, background-type person. And those I do talk to see my especially bad side -- the side that I don't like, the side that only shows when I'm upset. Often, I can cover it up around my friends. I'll just be a little more reserved than usual. But when I know I'll say something mean, I just tell the person I'm not in the mood, and I try to avoid people as much as possible.
But there's ways I prevent that. Maybe, if you're like me and have a short temper that gets even worse when you're upset, you can try these tips, and they may work.
1. Writing. The paper (or computer) is the first thing I go to. Most of the time the writing is stupid and pointless (though some work out and become articles, like this), but it makes me feel a whole lot better. No matter what it's about, related to my feelings or not, I feel like I'm letting it out. Maybe not whatever I'm upset about, but something. Something that's in my head is leaving, and I just feel better.
2. Reading. Getting absorbed in someone else's world -- someone else's problems, fears, friends, universe -- makes me forget about mine. I travel somewhere else, and leave everything behind.
3. Music. There's something about listening to music that makes me feel better. I don't know what it is, but it does. Generally it's a few of the same songs that I just listen to over and over again until I feel better completely. Depending on why I'm upset, listening to my favorite song once would make me feel better, but sometimes it takes 10 times of that song and others I like. Playing music helps me, too. It's like writing -- I'm letting something out.
4. If all else fails, Harry Potter. Harry Potter is what I love. So I might reread the books, watch the movies, watch a parody, or just think about it, and I usually end up feeling better.
So, why don't you give those a shot if you're like me and want to prevent yourself from blowing up? Except the Harry Potter thing -- I think that one only applies to me. But you might want to try it with something you love (or maybe it only works if you're obsessed, like me), be it sports, Twilight, another book, anything. You've got nothing to lose, right? Oh, one more thing:
5. Friends. Sometimes I could be upset and then see my friends and they just make me forget my problems. I end up having fun with them, despite myself. But make sure they're good friends who won't be upset if you do end up getting angry.
So to all those Me's out there, good luck!
~cass402
